What about your friends?

I recently met up with some old friends from high school and we made concrete plans to meet-up again and agreed to get together more often. One of those “get togethers” is going to the NKOTB Main Event concert with special guests TLC and Nelly. So this weekend I took a little trip down memory lane and listened to some TLC. One of my favorite songs was/is “What about your friends” and it really got me thinking.

Not to be overly dramatic but the past 3 years have been really difficult for me. I had people in my life that I thought were friends for life basically disappear on me and when I was in their presence treat me like the I had the plague. I had a nightmarish pregnancy due to HG (Hyperemesis Gravidarum), and then my life drastically changed when I became a mom and while I was trying to figure it all out I faced serious financial struggles due to government red tape that left me with little to no maternity leave pay. It was 3 years filled with rumours, lies, hurt, physical pain, emotional struggles and anger.

But if all of that taught me anything it taught me that my true friends never left me. People who I may not have seen or really spoke to in almost 20 years were there to support me; friends I neglected to make time for other people not only showed up, but held me up. Friends who saw me struggling reached out to make sure I knew that I wasn’t alone and that all the crap that was surrounding me was just that…crap. They made me stop doubting my worth, or who I was and that the reason they were still there was BECAUSE of who I was. And all the crap, especially the friend crap came into perspective and I can’t thank those people enough for it. Continue reading

Sister Wife? I’m in! (kind of)

I’ve been overly exhausted lately, constantly yawning and yearning to go back to bed, dragging my feet through the day barely awake. It’s not because I’m not getting any sleep, if anything I may be getting too much sleep, but I find myself unmotivated to do anything. So this morning when I remembered that my husband invited friends over this evening I shuttered inside.

I love having people over, I love our friends and family and want to spend as much time as I can with them.But this weekend, because I’m so tired I was not really feeling it. There’s a lot involved when people are coming over, you gotta make/buy snacks, tidy the house etc. etc. and it’s times like this that makes me wish there was more than one me.

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